exactly the same but slightly different

Same colors and tones, basic washed out hues of soft pink & milky cream. Today my thoughts are questions.. why did I do that, why didn’t I do that? Sometimes I get thinking too big and important and end up feeling very small and insignificant (I mean on the grand scale of it all, well, it’s incredibly true) but for right here and now, I’m trying my best to understand the whys.

Like why didn’t I change out my heavyweight needle when sewing this finicky broadcloth, why didn’t I cut the inside pockets so they would go all the way to the side seams like the outside pockets do, and why when I realized they wouldn’t and I didn’t have enough of my prized cotton canvas left to fix it, I decided to just pink them and leave them raw? Why was that what my perfectionist self did, why now do I love this bag so freaking much, f’d up inside pockets, puckers and all?

Why do I have to justify loving it to myself?

Or why do I tote this shawl everywhere but never work on it, I absolutely adore it, I really do, but it’s been on the needles since October 2018 and is a main rotation wip ..why don’t I knit more?

Why isn’t the little bit I knit enough?

It must be the heaviness of winter, thick blankets of snow muffling the everyday sounds, leaving excess quiet time for overly critical reflection. Why?

collection of thoughts

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Life is a jumble, a little bit of everything, a little bit of nothing, quiet peace with bursts of chaos, hurt that slowly softens, profound and stupid and terrible and wonderful all at once.

Taking it all in, giving everything its moment, because we are all different, but the same, we are all nothing more than a jumbled collection of lots and lots of little bits, profound, and stupid, and terrible and wonderful all at once.

💕

Littles

It’s been far too warm to work on anything big, so lately it’s been all about the littles.

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Little bunny in a linen dress.

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Little gummy bear stitch marker, next to a little dpn cozy, stuffed in a little project bag.

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Little sock cast on, using that little gummy stitch marker,

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or maybe the happy little fruit loop?

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Little crochet flower to match my bigger than little English Garden pouch.

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Little weird movies & stills for instagram. Not sure if these warm days melted my mind, because yeah…

(literally those fruits were meh)