ready, set, nah

Have you ever had something you really wanted to do, but then for some reason the mood shifts and it gets moved to the side or abandoned completely? I have that happen all the time with my making, I’ll have an idea, daydream about it (plan what materials to use & how cute it’s gonna be), draw out the details, gather supplies, and then not actually start it. Sometimes it’s because of other obligations, or other projects, but sometimes there’s no reason at all. I’m trying to be sweeter to my creative heart when the excitement fades and appreciate the happiness the planning brought me. Letting myself move along, maybe coming back to it later, maybe not. I tell my inner attitude it’s not time wasted, it’s not lazy, it’s exploration, it’s helping me be better prepared for it, when I’m ready for it.

It happens with my knitting too. I’ve had this pattern for a while (Ok, I just looked, I purchased it in 2016!) and over that time I’ve thought about this shawl a lot, and each time it bubbles back up to the top, I get a smidge closer to actually starting it, I can’t exactly put my finger on why I haven’t cast on yet, but choosing not to force it, will make it all the more enjoyable when I do.

Other times it’s the opposite, when an idea goes from a random thought on a Wednesday to a fully formed thing by Friday.

I wanted a shirt, so I made a shirt. I found some sheer cotton lawn fabric, drafted out a simple boxy top pattern and got to it. Revised a few iffy bits and version 2 is already on the cutting table.

(💕 Sewing beautiful things for my body out of weird stash fabrics because I can. It took ages to learn I was perfect the whole time, and it was society and fast fashion that had the size problem.)

Giving myself room to develop ideas, a place to start or come back to without any set expectations, allowing mistakes, changing directions, taking notes along the way, remembering productivity doesn’t have to mean physical production.

(💕 Making the slow moving glitter shakers of my childhood took way more time and effort than I thought it would, but Lex is an enthusiastic and calm craft companion and when I would start to get rumpled, she’d say or do something cute and snap me back. The trade off is, she’s messy as shit, So Much Glitter Face!)

Unexpected magical things just happen when you give something room to grow.

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thinking of you

The studio has been quiet these days, deep thoughts and conversations about the world we live in, and how we will continue to educate, remind, and push ourselves to do better, acknowledging and changing the parts that cause harm, understanding the language we use to say things and the actions we take, can both help and hurt. Listening. Speaking up. Shutting shit down. Requiring the same of those around us, while understanding we are all at different points in our learning and unlearning, stumbling, backtracking, reading it again, and again, reaching out and continuing to grow, together.

This Walk Collection Linea bought in 2016, made into something in 2017, frogged after finishing and now becoming something new in 2020, it goes like that sometimes, today it’s a Tramonto Shawl along with a little handmade reminder of the June peonies. 💕